Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: What's this all abo...

Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: What's this all abo...: Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: What's this all about then? : Well, I had yet another one of my weird dreams again last night...

How not to lose the Menaces

I finally finished knitting the Dennis the Menace Jumpers, and we set off for Blackpool.

there's no chance of any of us getting lost and not found,

The jumpers went down a storm, lots of folks admired them and they were even more impressed to learn that I had knitted them all.  I had to do some research after someone asked if we were Freddie Krueger or Dennis the Menace.... I haven't and never will see Nightmare on Elm Street.

Suffice to say, the Menaces had a grand old time and love their trademark jumpers

Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: What's this all about then?

Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: What's this all about then?: Well, I had yet another one of my weird dreams again last night...... Billy says I'm a Numpty, it's not my fault.  Anyway, in thi...

Gormless or Gormless?

I'm deaf right, so I have a flashing light system in the house to let me know the phone is ringing or someone is at the door..

I have put a note on the front door because people knock and I don't hear them so consequently I miss important callers ie repair men or deliveries. This is very frustrating and anger making for me. 

Today I nearly s**t myself when I heard what sounded to me, like a wall being demolished. I rushed to open the front door to see what happened and, as Lord sugar would say "the bleedin' postman' is standing there clutching a large parcel. We'll I gave him a flea in the ear..... Now, I wonder if my notice on the front door isn't quite visible ? 🙈

 

A vicious circle

I started to wake up with a feeling of dread every morning, I didn't want to get up and go to work.  I felt I didn't give a damn if I got the sack, but I knew that I did give a damn but didn't care or did I?  I couldn't be bothered.  

I thought of my husband getting up every day at daft o'clock to go to work and I used that thought to make an effort and go about my business.  I was managing to keep the tears at bay, didn't know why I was going to cry and felt like shit most of the time.  I managed to keep my head above water and plod along.

Today, it is my son's birthday, a happy day, I wasn't going to be seeing him but we are on social media and keep in touch and we spent Friday together, had lunch and a laugh.

Today, Sunday, I woke up with a big black shadow pressing in my gut. I didn't want to get up, I didn't want to go swimming as planned, with hubby.  I just wanted to sleep and sleep.  I told hubby how I felt and he was great, he gave me a cuddle and went to make a cup of tea.  I turned over to go back to sleep and then I thought of him downstairs being so good and I made myself get up and go and join him.  I drank my tea and we went to get ready for swimming.  I still had this big black shadow bearing down on me but I made an effort to get in the car and go to the leisure centre, where I smiled back at people and said hello and I thought to myself, if only they knew how miserable and sad and heavy at heart I am feeling, but I just carried on going through the motions.

In the swimming pool we swam two lengths and I had to stop, the big black shadow became a massive panic attack.  I was terrified, I haven't had a panic attack for many years.  I started to cry quietly and told hubby. Again he was great and comforted me, he asked me if I wanted to go home  I did some yoga breathing and recalled one time when I was in this same dark place, my Doctor gave me a sick note for 2 weeks, he said "go and do things that make you happy and come back and see me".  I told this to hubby, and seeing as how I was in the swimming pool and swimming makes me happy, I chose to stay and finish the session.  

After the session I was still below par but functioning a bit better, we went shopping to look for a winter coat for me and the panic attack went away but I still have this big black shadow resting inside me.  There is a massive waiting list for my therapy so I am going to have to rely on my inner strength and my husband, to get me through each day.  God bless him and thank you my love xx

Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: No! No! No you couldn't make it up

Maxine's BBbitching 'N' Stuff: No! No! No you couldn't make it up: I had a fantastic time in Scarborough with my beloved husband, Billy, we had a WoWcher for a 3 course meal, bed and breakfast and were pleas...

No! No! No you couldn't make it up

I had a fantastic time in Scarborough with my beloved husband, Billy, we had a WoWcher for a 3 course meal, bed and breakfast and were pleasantly surprised with a free bottle of Pinot Grigio with our meal.  There was however, ONE blot on the landscape.

On Monday afternoon, we went to the hotel pool for a swim, the water was lovely and warm and relaxing, we had the pool to ourselves great you think, so did we until the fire alarm went off and we had to evacuate the building, it's a good job we always take our flip flops with us isn't it?

When we emerged from the bowels of the hotel to the main entrance without seeing a soul, it was a bit eerie, but then, through the double wide open front doors of the establishment, we saw a whole bunch of staff and guests across the road waiting for the all clear, all eyes were on the two of us in a both wrapped up in towels that could have done with being much larger, we were shivering, wet and cold, it is soooo windy near the sea.

You can believe it was an ice breaker ha ha.  A member of staff gave us a load of silver "blankets" to wrap up in, sadly there was a battle with the wind and the won, it was playing kites with the blankets so we didn't feel the benefit of them.  We had a happy ending though, because on returning to the hotel we got fresh, warm, dry towels and went straight back into the warm and welcoming water for a good 45 minutes.

In all the hotels we have stayed at in fifteen years, we have never so much as heard a fire alarm, never mind have an evacuation....... let's hope it never happens again eh?